You Thin It Ill Say It Book Review

March 3, 1985

How to Become a Writer Or, Accept You Earned This Cliche?

By LORRIE MOORE

irst, try to exist something, anything, else. A picture show star/astronaut. A movie star/ missionary. A movie star/kindergarten teacher. President of the Globe. Fail miserably. Information technology is best if you fail at an early historic period - say, 14. Early, critical disillusionment is necessary and then that at fifteen you tin can write long haiku sequences about thwarted desire. It is a pond, a cherry blossom, a current of air brushing against sparrow wing leaving for mount. Count the syllables. Bear witness information technology to your mom. She is tough and practical. She has a son in Vietnam and a husband who may be having an affair. She believes in wearing brown because it hides spots. She'll await briefly at your writing and so back up at you with a confront blank as a doughnut. She'll say: ''How about emptying the dishwasher?'' Await away. Shove the forks in the fork drawer. Accidentally break 1 of the freebie gas station spectacles. This is the required pain and suffering. This is just for starters.

In your high schoolhouse English course look at Mr. Killian'southward face. Decide faces are important. Write a villanelle about pores. Struggle. Write a sonnet. Count the syllables: nine, x, eleven, thirteen. Make up one's mind to experiment with fiction. Here y'all don't have to count syllables. Write a curt story about an elderly man and woman who accidentally shoot each other in the head, the result of an inexplicable malfunction of a shotgun which appears mysteriously in their living room one night. Requite information technology to Mr. Killian as your last project. When you become information technology back, he has written on information technology: ''Some of your images are quite prissy, but you accept no sense of plot.'' When you are domicile, in the privacy of your own room, faintly scrawl in pencil below his black- inked comments: ''Plots are for dead people, pore- confront.''

Take all the baby-sitting jobs you tin become. Y'all are great with kids. They love you. You tell them stories about quondam people who die idiot deaths. You sing them songs like ''Blue Bells of Scotland,'' which is their favorite. And when they are in their pajamas and take finally stopped pinching each other, when they are fast asleep, you read every sexual practice transmission in the firm, and wonder how on earth anyone could e'er practice those things with someone they truly loved. Fall asleep in a chair reading Mr. McMurphy's Playboy. When the McMurphys come habitation, they will tap you on the shoulder, expect at the mag in your lap and grin. You will want to die. They will ask you if Tracey took her medicine all correct. Explain, yeah, she did, that yous promised her a story if she would take it like a big girl and that seemed to work out just fine. ''Oh, marvelous,'' they volition exclaim.

Endeavor to smile proudly.

Apply to college as a child psychology major.

Every bit a child psychology major, you accept some electives. You've always liked birds. Sign upward for something called ''The Ornithological Field Trip.'' It meets Tuesdays and Thursdays at two. When you arrive at Room 134 on the first day of class, everyone is sitting effectually a seminar table talking nearly metaphors. Yous've heard of these. After a short, excruciating while, raise your hand and say diffidently, ''Excuse me, isn't this Bird-Watching 101?'' The class stops and turns to wait at you. They seem to all have i face - giant and blank as a vandalized clock. Someone with a beard booms out, ''No, this is Artistic Writing.'' Say: ''Oh - right,'' as if perhaps you lot knew all along. Expect downwards at your schedule. Wonder how the hell you ended up hither. The computer, apparently, has fabricated an error. You start to get up to leave and then don't.

The lines at the registrar this week are huge. Perhaps you should stick with this mistake. Perhaps your creative writing isn't all that bad. Mayhap it is fate. Perhaps this is what your dad meant when he said, ''It'south the age of computers, Francie, it'south the age of computers.''

Make up one's mind that you like college life. In your dorm you meet many nice people. Some are smarter than you lot. And some, you find, are dumber than you. You will continue, unfortunately, to view the earth in exactly these terms for the rest of your life.

The assignment this week in creative writing is to narrate a violent happening. Turn in a story almost driving with your Uncle Gordon and some other 1 about two old people who are accidentally electrocuted when they get to plough on a badly wired desk-bound lamp. The teacher will paw them back to you with comments: ''Much of your writing is smooth and energetic. You take, even so, a ludicrous notion of plot.'' Write another story well-nigh a man and a adult female who, in the very commencement paragraph, accept their lower torsos accidentally blitzed abroad past dynamite. In the 2d paragraph, with the insurance money, they buy a frozen yogurt stand together. There are six more paragraphs. You read the whole thing out loud in class. No 1 likes it. They say your sense of plot is outrageous and incompetent. Afterward grade someone asks you if you are crazy.

Decide that perhaps yous should stick to comedies. Start dating someone who is funny, someone who has what in high schoolhouse you chosen a ''really great sense of humor'' and what now your creative writing course calls ''cocky-contempt giving ascent to comic form.'' Write downwardly all of his jokes, but don't tell him you are doing this. Brand up anagrams of his old girlfriend's name and name all of your socially handicapped characters with them. Tell him his sometime girlfriend is in all of your stories and so watch how funny he can exist, see what a actually great sense of humor he can accept. Your child psychology adviser tells y'all you are neglecting courses in your major. What you spend the most time on should be what you lot're majoring in. Say yep, you sympathize.

In creative writing seminars over the side by side ii years, everyone continues to smoke cigarettes and ask the same things: ''Only does it work?'' ''Why should we intendance well-nigh this character?'' ''Take yous earned this cliche?'' These seem like important questions.

On days when it is your turn, you look at the class hopefully every bit they scour your mimeographs for a plot. They await support at you, drag securely and then smiling in a sweet sort of mode.

You spend too much fourth dimension slouched and demoralized. Your fellow suggests bicycling. Your roommate suggests a new swain. You are said to be cocky-mutilating and losing weight, simply y'all go along writing. The only happiness yous have is writing something new, in the eye of the night, armpits damp, heart pounding, something no one has all the same seen. You accept only those brief, fragile, untested moments of exhilaration when you lot know: you lot are a genius. Understand what you must practice. Switch majors. The kids in your nursery project will exist disappointed, but you take a calling, an urge, a mirage, an unfortunate addiction. You accept, as your mother would say, fallen in with a bad crowd.

Why write? Where does writing come up from? These are questions to ask yourself. They are similar: Where does dust come from? Or: Why is at that place state of war? Or: If there'due south a God, then why is my brother at present a cripple?

These are questions that you keep in your wallet, like calling cards. These are questions, your creative writing teacher says, that are proficient to accost in your journals only rarely in your fiction.

The writing professor this fall is stressing the Power of the Imagination. Which ways he doesn't want long descriptive stories virtually your camping ground trip terminal July. He wants you lot to kickoff in a realistic context just then to alter it. Like recombinant Dna. He wants you to let your imagination sail, to let it grow large-bellied in the current of air. This is a quote from Shakespeare.

ell your roommate your peachy idea, your great practice of imaginative power: a transformation of Melville to contemporary life. Information technology will be virtually monomania and the fish-consume-fish world of life insurance in Rochester, Northward.Y. The first line will exist ''Telephone call me Fishmeal,'' and information technology will feature a menopausal suburban husband named Richard, who considering he is and then depressed all the time is called ''Mopey Dick'' past his witty wife Elaine. Say to your roommate: ''Mopey Dick, get it?'' Your roommate looks at you lot, her face blank as a large Kleenex. She comes upwards to you, similar a buddy, and puts an arm effectually your burdened shoulders. ''Listen, Francie,'' she says, slow as speech therapy. ''Let's go out and get a big beer.''

The seminar doesn't like this one either. You suspect they are beginning to feel sad for you. They say: ''You lot have to think nearly what is happening. Where is the story here?''

The next semester the writing professor is obsessed with writing from personal experience. You must write from what you know, from what has happened to you lot. He wants deaths, he wants camping trips. Recall most what has happened to you. In 3 years there have been three things: you lost your virginity; your parents got divorced; and your blood brother came domicile from a forest 10 miles from the Cambodian edge with merely half a thigh, a permanent smirk nestled into one corner of his mouth.

Nigh the first you write: ''Information technology created a new space, which injure and cried in a voice that wasn't mine, 'I'grand not the same anymore, only I'll be O.K.' ''

Nigh the 2nd you write an elaborate story of an sometime married couple who stumble upon an unknown country mine in their kitchen and accidentally blow themselves upward. You call information technology: ''For Ameliorate or for Liverwurst.''

About the last you lot write nothing. There are no words for this. Your typewriter hums. You tin find no words.

At undergraduate cocktail parties, people say, ''Oh, you write? What do you write about?'' Your roommate, who has consumed too much wine, likewise little cheese and no crackers at all, blurts: ''Oh, my god, she always writes about her dumb boyfriend.''

Later in life y'all volition learn that writers are just open up, helpless texts with no real understanding of what they accept written and therefore must one-half-believe anything and everything that is said of them. You, nevertheless, accept not even so reached this stage of literary criticism. You stiffen and say, ''I do non,'' the same style you said it when someone in the fourth grade accused you of really liking oboe lessons and your parents actually weren't but making y'all take them.

Insist you are not very interested in whatever ane subject at all, that y'all are interested in the music of linguistic communication, that you are interested in - in - syllables, because they are the atoms of verse, the cells of the mind, the breath of the soul. Begin to feel woozy. Stare into your plastic wine cup.

''Syllables?'' you will hear someone ask, vocalism trailing off, as they glide slowly toward the reassuring white of the dip.

Brainstorm to wonder what y'all practice write virtually. Or if you have annihilation to say. Or if at that place even is such a thing as a thing to say. Limit these thoughts to no more than than 10 minutes a day, like sit- ups, they can make you thin.

You lot will read somewhere that all writing has to do with i's genitals. Don't dwell on this. It will make you nervous.

Your mother will come visit yous. She volition expect at the circles nether your eyes and mitt you a dark-brown book with a brown briefcase on the cover. It is entitled: ''How to Get a Business Executive.'' She has likewise brought the ''Names for Infant'' encyclopedia you asked for; one of your characters, the aging clown-schoolteacher, needs a new name. Your female parent will shake her head and say: ''Francie, Francie, remember when you were going to be a child psychology major?''

Say: ''Mom, I like to write.''

She'll say: ''Sure you like to write. Of course. Certain you like to write.''

Write a story about a confused music student and championship it: ''Schubert Was the One with the Glasses, Right?'' It's not a big striking, although your roommate likes the part where the two violinists accidentally blow themselves upwardly in a recital room. ''I went out with a violinist once,'' she says, snapping her mucilage.

Thank god you are taking other courses. You lot can find sanctuary in 19th-century ontological snags and invertebrate courtship rituals. Certain globular mollusks have what is called ''Sexual activity by the Arm.'' The male octopus, for instance, loses the finish of one arm when placing information technology inside the female body during intercourse. Marine biologists phone call it ''Seven Sky.'' Be glad you know these things. Be glad y'all are not merely a writer. Apply to law schoolhouse.

From here on in, many things tin can happen. Simply the chief one will be this: You decide not to go to police schoolhouse subsequently all, and, instead, yous spend a good, big clamper of your adult life telling people how you decided not to get to police force schoolhouse afterwards all. Somehow y'all end up writing once more. Perhaps y'all get to graduate school. Perhaps yous work odd jobs and accept writing courses at night. Possibly yous are working and writing down all the clever remarks and intimate personal confessions you hear during the 24-hour interval. Perhaps you are losing your pals, your acquaintances, your rest.

You lot have broken up with your boyfriend. You now get out with men who, instead of whispering ''I love you,'' shout: ''Do it to me, baby.'' This is skilful for your writing.

Sooner or later on you have a finished manuscript more or less. People look at it in a vaguely troubled sort of way and say, ''I'll bet becoming a writer was always a fantasy of yours, wasn't information technology?'' Your lips dry out to salt. Say that of all the fantasies possible in the world, y'all can't imagine being a writer even making the top 20. Tell them you were going to be a child psychology major. ''I bet,'' they ever sigh, ''yous'd be corking with kids.'' Scowl fiercely. Tell them you're a walking blade.

Quit classes. Quit jobs. Cash in one-time savings bonds. Now yous have time like warts on your easily. Slowly re-create all of your friends' addresses into a new address book.

Vacuum. Chew cough drops. Go on a folder full of fragments.

An eyelid concealment sideways.

World as conspiracy.

Possible plot? A woman gets on a autobus.

Suppose you threw a love affair and nobody came.

At dwelling drink a lot of coffee. At Howard Johnson's order the cole slaw. Consider how information technology looks like the soggy confetti of a map: where you lot've been, where yous're going - ''Y'all Are Here,'' says the red star on the back of the menu.

Occasionally a date with a face bare as a sheet of paper asks you whether writers often become discouraged. Say that sometimes they practice and sometimes they practise. Say it'due south a lot similar having polio.

''Interesting,'' smiles your date, and then he looks downwardly at his arm hairs and starts to smooth them, all, always, in the aforementioned direction.

From ''Cocky-Aid,'' a drove of short stories past Lorrie Moore to exist published by Alfred A. Knopf. Copyright c 1985 by G. L. Moore.

Lorrie Moore teaches English at the Academy of Wisconsin, Madison. Her starting time book, a short-story collection entitled ''Cocky Help,'' will be published afterwards this month.

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